Meeting @ the media room daydream

She was drinking
And I was drinking too
The smell of cigar
Pairs the cold night and the cold beer
It’s was a scene of downcast
So alone in the world of very long fixed stare
Yet the rapids of each second
Plunges at the deepest fall
The deepest desires
To the subdued soul
The only thing alive
Because the bodies already gave in
To their own weaknesses
Already recognizing
The uncanny trying
Of filling the bristled emptiness
Blinding even the third eye
Single elements began to merge
Harmony of the soft sharpness of every move
None of it promises trust
It was the house rule of the school 
We were young
And we were “emo”
Between the closest distance
It was a blitz
But anywhere else
It’s wasn’t sober
But soberest

Another Play of Words

 
How
Long have I been
Stuck
Still thinking of you
You
And the memories
Sticks
Like cheap a glue
Easy
To put, easy to fall too
I
Know that I can
Drown
Myself with Smirnoff
Lock
Below the seabed
To
Wake up for
Once
With headache
Alone
And no longer heartaches
Please
Let me breath
With
Better lungs
Anew
Open heart perspective
With
Good friends
Never
Tired of listening
As
Comfort should stop
My
Tears for good
Let
This night be my witness
As
I write my memories
Away
From earth
 
 

All this chills in the morning

I got tears in the morning
They feel so warm
But I’m still cold
All this chills
Tell a story
They make me strong
Make me strong
 
By my hand
Is your smile
Memories that goes so far
It hurts me more
More and more…
 
Til the day will come and play
How I wish you had stayed
But you had to go
You had to go
Farther than the moon above
Farther than the world we’ve known
 
I got tears in the morning
The more they fall
The more I grow
Like the sun
I’ll try to shine
Try to think
Perhaps awhile
You wanted to stay
 

999 Wonders

Feb 22, 2008  
I wonder how you sleep.
With all the traffic in your head
And the crossroads in your heart
The choices you’ve made
Thinking there is no turning back
The difference we thought we needed

All for the glory of now
Not for the long run
I wonder how you breath.
With all this scarcity of love
This fake world we’re living
Time wasted on wrong reasons
Everything jaded
Then you crumble 
I wonder how you weep.
Does the leak make things softer?
How much heavier can you go on?
Does the world really care?
You wonder
If ever you could go back
When will you start?
I want you to remember
I want you to break free!
I want you…to get over
Wonder how beautiful you can be
Now lay it down…
I’ll always be with you
Here and now
I’ll pull you high enough
Be your savior!
Be your saviour!
I will be 
You’ve been my savior…
Will not fail this time 

My Graveyard Shift Qualms

Feb 17, 2007

Amidst my busy desk

I found myself

A frozen smile in an autistic stare

*

My seatmate says I’m lucky

I’m rich enough to afford some time for that (Autistic mode; a certain sickness)

I said don’t get me wrong

I’m not taking it from my time-bank

I’m withdrawing it from my feelings instead

You see “feelings” is gold

And like any other treasure

I’m just spending it wisely

Using sarcasm to cover the bad feeling of being interrupted

So I continue…

Indulging in the brushes of cute memory smiles

Of the simplest touch that makes a day

…And more

*

If only you are up tonight

I wouldn’t be sick too much

(Of too much missing you)  

In love

Feb16

Now I raise my head
To see better things
The infinite fun
The ultimate reach of my sight
Heaven’s lips kissing my cheek
The heart of space that beats my peace
Indulging like siblings and their innocence
I see your face
I’m in love…
I’m in love with nature
I’m in love with you
I don’t need meaning
Only faith
Pure bliss and soft wind
Carry my soul to my rest
Like in a mother’s womb
I am home
Finally…
Believe and everything grows
Even flowers are meant in the skies

Dawn-wait

April 6, 2006

Your kiss

Just sealed forever

Missing you badly

Like flowers impatiently stretching

For the first ray

I’m sharing the same light to guide me home

To the eternal comfort

Of your hug and million kisses

I will draw pictures of you

In my every breath

Inside this thin coat of hope

I shall keep myself safe

While waiting

Be there soon with you

Where my heart fits best

Out of Love

Days are lessons

And I am a student

I have let go of the past

But I still live with their scars

I have learned that the wounds hardest to heal

Are not the ones above your skin

Tears hardest to cry

Are not the ones that flows in your eyes

I have accepted the fact

That mortals will never be above their dreams

But it’s their dreams that push them high

If forever permits

I’ll keep these learnings

Like a tyro in battle keeping the a picture of his wife

I was once murderer as well

All for duty of the higher forces I am under

I don’t blame this forces

I am guilty of inflicting pain none-the-less

And in response

I got my share of pain as well

In a swing for balance

I have fallen more than a hundred times

For what it’s worth

I must have done well

Now and in the future battles

I am tyro still but will never fear

Knowing that I got the hardest shield

The shield…

Made out of your love

Out of Love

March 30,2006 

Days are lessons

And I am a student

I have let go of the past

But I still live with their scars

I have learned that the wounds hardest to heal

Are not the ones above your skin

Tears hardest to cry

Are not the ones that flows in your eyes

I have accepted the fact

That mortals will never be above their dreams

But it's their dreams that push them high

If forever permits

I'll keep these learnings

Like a tyro in battle keeping the a picture of his wife

I was once murderer as well

All for duty of the higher forces I am under

I don't blame this forces

I am guilty of inflicting pain none-the-less

And in response

I got my share of pain as well

In a swing for balance

I have fallen more than a hundred times

For what it's worth

I must have done well

Now and in the future battles

I am tyro still but will never fear

Knowing that I got the hardest shield

The shield…

Made out of your love

Alone is not always lonely

 

april 12, 2006 Malapascua trip

Beaching in an island whose music drilled my core

I had my ears torn by its sweetness

I am away but I'm home

The same push that I see behind the waves made me get up in my feet

Draw patterns in the sand

and sing songs of the wind

Connecting to happy people;

learning their smiles

Reminding the horizons;

of me and my wife's hopes

I miss her in my every beat

she is my source of wisdom and she is never weak

That distance of the seas

is just traveled in a breeze

And from the mind to the heart

everything will be ease

Thank the Lord for the

splashes in my face

Washes the strains that

I got from the cash and stress dispensing city

I saved for this this day

just a day to be away

In an island

alone is not always lonely by the way

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