Like it was a piece
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july 27, 2006
“Hit me with music, coz music feels no pain”
The musicman strikes his guitar like it was a piece of percussion drum
His fingers roam like a wild spider on the fret
The music was organic
His face looked like he just had an orgasm
The audience could only watch
He knows that some would disagree with his message
But he doesn’t mind
It was never meant for anyone too worldly
To take a walk
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July 20, 2006
Today I decided to take a walk
To experience things slow
See the clouds in their play-sky-demo
Feel the wind blowing my clothes and wishing I’d be blown away too
Or at least stay afloat for a while
Today I decided to take a walk
Because I want to figure out balance
Thinking about my worries
And finding peace
Hearing my sadness
While serenity plays in the side
I’m seeing more when I close my eyes
Today I decided to take a walk
So that when grasses start to dance
And flowers rockets boom
I will be there
And see it all
Garb of HOPE
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Nov. 2, 2005
This morning as I was laying bare in the ground
Wanted to feel the heat of the earth
Just counting my blessings
And troubles of the physical world
I was reflecting on my years of best-ever-life-trip-experience-I
can-ever-have
And then I saw huge vultures feasting on a dead relationship’s
corpse…
Frightened with the sight
I hurriedly cover the corpse with my naked body protecting from the sharp claws of creatures
In so I got scratched at the back as deep as the blue seas and wounds that scares even warriors…
But the pain didn’t matter…
My senses died with the relationship already…
I tried to begged the vultures to spare our dead relationship’s
remain in exchange for my heart
And my proposal was happily accepted
I thought it was clever knowing that I don’t have much use of it anyway…
You know what..
Just before he could ripped my heart out, something
happened…
The spirit of the relationship appeared and scared the vultures away..
I was strucked with all my senses back!!!
Like a sole drainage of an ultimate body of water, Instantly, I came around.
Then I ask the spirit…WHY?
She just held my bleeding chest
As if she’s putting back what I almost lost..
Smiled in reply…
Like saying I should keep my heart where it should be
While she garb my naked body with HOPE..
House of Candles
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feb14,2006
Once there was a girl
Who had candles as friends
In her family
She is the eldest of four
And they live with their mom;who is always busy finding food for table, couldn’t give that much time to her children
The girl always cries about
How she misses the only love she had ever known
The one from her father;who died early from a traitor-heart-disease
Sometimes she’d bleed herself just to feel real
It was the candles;the only thing that kept her and their house alive
A soul searcher
Happens to passby
Young man full pride
His past was full of glorious ventures
He carries a book;records his conquest and keeps his notes
Luck was his companion
He’d say
“To my destiny is where I’m going”
But somehow along the way…
..got lost
Despite his proud credentials
He still finds himself dull and empty
As if something is missing
He often dared failure to face him;just to feed his appepite for knowledge
Plays with fate in his pastime; it’s his way of fun
He was a drifter
This time,he decided to take a stop
Thinking helping would be like paying for his sins
He always believe in that;nobility was his code
Self-declared
And so it went…
For a time, things seem to be working
Symbiotic for both their needs;
The girls tears is slowly drying as she found refuge in drifter’s arms
And in the other end
A contended homey feeling filled the searcher’s tired and incomplete heart
The searcher knew he is not suppose to be attached
Attachments only make you vulnerable
Like a wise man
He’s suppose to keep his eyes to his price
But that day he didn’t care
The soul searcher;little did he know
The girl’s tears was not what they seem to be
It was a family curse;her tears were intoxicating wine that makes people forget their dreams
His dream…his destiny;his everything is at stake now
And before he knew it
It was too late
He couldn’t resist the spell
It was too strong to fight and he’s feeling too noble to quit
Slowly…slowly…slowly;like a keen predator
It overtook his control;emotional from rational
And his confidence has been stripped
His spirit was turn into a fuel to feed girl’s selfish desires
Sucking every good spirit he had
Until one day…
The house no longer needed the candles
They can afford it now
The girl just made a living
Hidden in her subconcious mind though
Was all the strife she has been keeping
Irony never came in a better situation
It made her blind to the things that mattered
She’s now deep into her selfish desires
Her tears had harden her heart
Like a candle’s remain;it turned hard and deformed
As to the young man
He has became like a melted remain too
His fancy decorated soul is now a melted wax with a burned out wick
He collapsed in tears
As he remembered his teachers saying
Even good things has to come to an end
Once a proud warrior
Has become helpless beggar
He never felt so unneeded
Thin and cold
With a few last breaths
He still decided to give unconditional positive regards towards life
He stood to that priciple;it was his bloodline ever since
Learnings never failed the searcher path
Pain eventually led to freedom
And found true love a dependable cure
He finally found the truth;secrets he has been looking for
He has finally paid his debts and cleared his sins
He was empty handed
But this time with greater wisdom and a lighter heart
He moved on…back on his track
And the candles…remains a memory
It certainly gave them,the light they needed
Taken
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Nov.21
I wish to explain my thoughts
Not for you to understand But for me to bear
The language of my eyes
And all those gesture talks
Let me know I'm able
God must have known your needs
As he has given mine
This pain I need
Fuels me to the top
And my tears
Are there to wash
Your rusting insecurities
Like a humming sound
I will lose myself to think
I will be cured
For you and me both
Mornings in the Pantry
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april 20, 2006
The sun just woke up
After a peaceful inactivity
He went directly to my side
Shaking off drowsiness like a slug
I was enjoying a cup ice tea
As soon as he noticed it ,he laughed teasingly
It was his first showcase of emotion that day
I thought I remembered the same impression
Continued the meditation unbothered
I recognized another companion
The coffee dispenser
He stands in his corner as always
Quite as the smoke that clothes him
He seems to be very needed in this office
Yet not once have I seen him recognized
But he never complained
Everyday bleeding caffeine to each of his devotee
Like believers doing pilgrimage
A patient line marks to their elixir of strength
I thought
I am lucky I am not religious
But I pray to these gods none-the-less
The sun, the coffee dispenser and their thoughts
Conversation I
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feb 2, 2006
While your were talking
I was thinking about
The heavy baggage of your soul
There are too many things to talk about
"Can't catch up with my mind"
You said
"Is there something I can do?
To slow things down for you?"
I asked
"I know…The world is a strong drug
That stimulates people like me and you"
We share this place…
A big, big, big empty space
Where walls are too high
But can't confine
Were doors are windows that are locked
But you can a take peek
Of the infinite flowers and trees
Hope and possibilities
It doesn't take too much time
You said, "Lands are just a step away
But moves like a rat-trap sometimes"
I agreed and added
"While our lives are other people's dream
Our dreams are actually to live other people's lives"
"Funny…" you said
"I know…" I replied
We both know
"Let me interrupt
And give you a lighter side
When things go wrong
What I do
Just look at my girl's smile"
I thought
Whose world is so virgin
And so peaceful
Laughter is her language
It wipes away every little stain
Of sadness and pressure
You exclaimed with sarcasm
"You must be the luckiest man!"
Ah….
"Sorry and OK"
"Let me go back to your point"
And I just held my smile
This year…..
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Dec. 31, 2005
Lost a lot but found the oneLost the stars but got the sun
Got dumped by a lover and found a wife Gave up more and got a life
Lost a brother, he found his peaceFelt the pain that slowly ease Lost my head but found a heart
Lost the chaos and found my art
Lost my voice but found the words
I lost the beat but found the chords
My body was sick but I've
Strengthen my soul
Broke my plans and reached my goal
I lost my faith but found the cross
What I'm really trying to say is that
This year….
I have found more of what I've lost
Riddle
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jan14,2006
Full of rage!That never clashFull wealth But not like cash
Lots of words
That means one thing
It's the silence
That makes you sing
It's the wind
That blows your mind
The happy feeling
When your are kind
It's the love
That enemy's share
The extravagance!
When you want to bare
It's the will
When you want to quit
The hope
When a candle's lit
The courage
Not to lie
The fate
That you can't deny
It's the language
The world understands
The promise
Of the Almighty's hands
Summation of all stories
That's been wrote
All the lessons
We take note
It's the price
Of perseverance
The purity
Of ignorance
It's the humility
Of the wise
A hero
With no disguise
It's constant rule
That sometimes bends
It's the beginning where
This ends
Lesson’s of Holding On
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Dec 20, 2005
Isn't it you that said…Those thingsWill happen eventually
I was talking about my dreams then
It's was dark and heavy
My heart was always weary
I'm living my dreams now
I'm giving my own family the best
And from where I work
I got a window
That shows the sun rising
For me everyday
And that’s all I need
I guess
All I want to say is
Thank you
For giving me the chance
To love unconditionally
And reminding me
How deep I was into
Making a living
Out of your needs
And underlining insecurities
And totally forgetting about mine
Exchanging it for the years
And the glories of my youth
But now things have turned around
I have a lighter heart
And no more frown
The lion is back!
It roars so loud
And in his head
A freedom's crown
I ride my big bike
And fly high with my dream girl
We're on a perfect vacation
Exchanging kisses under the moon
I sure will marry her soon
My life is back
My mom is happier
My grandma is even more
And sure is
My late brother too
And yes!
Things will happen eventually…
