Shoulder Dance Moves
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Can of Worms
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Waiting Restaurant
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Dec. 14, 2007
Rushing while waiting
That’s how life seems
When your sitting and running in your head
The movements are arranged
In a chaotic mode
Until the drinks are finally served
I couldn’t take a sip just yet
Til my order is done cooking
It’s a personal thing
A form of prayer-before-meal not everyone practices
When suddenly a showcase of cakes passes by
While you think of “leche plan”
Then someMEthing comes daunting
Waiting to rush
-Is a phenomenon nobody cares but everybody worries
If only there is magic in between…
Perhaps like my wife done shopping already
Conversation of two famous personalities Dedicated to John Dash Nov 24, 2007 *
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John:
Of all the years I’ve been singing on stage
All I wanted to do is to finally find you among the crowd
To rest my voice and be home
And yes!
I made wrong decisions before
Ending up with the wrong people
Relationships that just went “crash and burn”
Marks of my hardships
I consider them sweetest still, knowing they are all leading to you
Now I have found you
I will give up everything just to keep you stay
Miss Personality:
Of all the years that
I have played my role
I gave up thinking of myself
Lost it in the transit
Lost in the crowd where you found me
I belong to what the people wants
To what my mom wants-my family’s needs
The years made me cold, you know how much
I appreciate your sweetness
It was my only spec of warmth
You are my shelter that
I didn’t have to use
Life is better hard sometimes
Times with you
But I wouldn’t be fair
I belong to someone else already
John:
I know weve been together not too long
But it is already like forever
I’ve never felt these troubles before
Matter of the mature heart
It was a matter of YOU
We can do this, we can work this out
I am at my best now
Fight with me
Let’s fight for something that makes you feel
Most real Like what we have
……….long pause ……………….
If you say NO… then please
Please tell me you hate me.. Show no mercy
Miss Personality:
Oh John Please help me survive this hammering
I have lived too long to know
About love songs and broken hearts
And I am breaking right now
More than you can imagine
I’ve been to too many empty cries already
But thank you and I’m sorry
Sorry you loved a pathetic heart that fell for your foolish face
And deep comforting songs
John:
Can we even try?
Hug me and kiss me one more time, please tell me…
Miss Personality:
The smell of cold beer and good friends
Should help you…and me
We will get over this
I will miss you
Please don’t call me anymore .
Tambayan is lonely tonight
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Nov. 2, 2007
Tambayan is lonely tonight
Maybe your care would count
Slouching in the pale half moon
With its twigs telling faded stories
The distant promises to be there when needed
All the colors was once composed
The happy green change
Was like a magical shade to our past
I can only watch and wish
They no longer real
Tambayan is lonely tonight
The laughter’s are more distant
The warm comfort of homey-feeling
Only the empty benches remain
The beautiful people has moved on
Leaving you with their names still buried
Their oath scratched on your bark
Weathered soil that erased your prints
But not your contribution to the book of times
Tambayan is lonely tonight
But we can bring back the life
Today you are there
And I may be alone here
Forgive me
I am missing sorrowfully wrong
Hope that’s alright
Like the first pain that you felt
Some things are just hard to get over
Punch Out
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Oct 4 2007
The pleasure of pressing the log out button
Has always been something to look forward to
Like Home
Daylight waits
Behind the door where you put and press your finger in
I don’t care if I don’t have shades to protect my burning eyes
The sun is comparable to love
You need its light and its heat
Just don’t stare
Or it can blind
If stress is considered a sickness
I don’t really mind being infected
Between the fake smiles and compromise
Meeting deadlines or otherwise
All is to achieve the beauty of the point of our lives
If it happens that we touch elbows on our way
Please excuse me
I just need to squeeze in to door of freedom
I’m already out
Out to work for another day.
It all started here…
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I’m startled awake by the winds
Whispering empty promises of tomorrow
I’ve fallen asleep again counting the blue stars
Not knowing when or how I’ll see you again
The dewdrops are forming crystals
On the cold sheets of shiny steel surrounding me
If you only know half of what I really feel
There’d be no need for me to dream anymore
*Maybe to you I’m just a fleeting shadow
Cast upon your illuminated world
But with you,the rest of my world turns into oblivion
That should count for something, shouldn’t it?
I’ve struggled to keep from falling
Down the dark abyss of your sad soul-searching eyes
I told myself it’s not right, it’s impossible
And as the stars fade, I still don’t know what to do
Today, I tell myself I’m forgetting you.
It all started here
(Anonymous,dated around 5 years ago,2003)
Letter to myself when I left her
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August 14, 2007
Last night I had a longer-than-normal dream
I couldn’t grasps the whole picture
I couldn’t hold it’s meaning
I could only see the bright lights that hurt
Equally piercing with our memories
I am restless I know
But more so in my dreams
I don’t know where to go to ask for advice
I’m afraid I’d be a fool
I don’t know if I still have the strength to resist
I am almost sure I don’t want to give in
I don’t want to see myself begging again
You cheated, I’m betrayed
You’re forgiven, but I’m still hurting
You’re free and I’m still in love
And I don’t know what to hope from it
For years I have only sewn the wrong holes
The hollow smiles are now harder sculpt
I have drowned myself with the scars of my own battles
Truth is a strong but worthy opponent
I have faced it with honor
The last strand of my defense
You’ve conquered it still
I can only hide myself too deep and too dark
And yes I am happy still
This is my triumph
This is my acceptance
How far can one go to hide from his own heart anyway?
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SugatIts a cliché see people marking tattoo of names of their lovers
But no matter what, I will always be amazed of the power
Of Love and Madness.
What did we have?
One time, in my everyday sleep-struggle, a picture of your blood-scratched wrist, discomposed my peace
I was hunted by guilt, for your mother to see you during dinner.
As she always knew when we had a fight or you having your moods.
Your mom, you, me and my dead brother as well… and maybe most of us.
Perhaps we share something always hard to explain or accept.
Pain would not be the exact term but that’s the closest word the sane world can get.
I’m afraid forgetting is remedy or easy.
Same with my self-righteousness.
I have to learn to respect the dark side of me.
For now I have control of my losings.
I will always be proud to tell my son.
My best memory of LOVE is not in the many times I was asking for it,
But in the One time I gave it up.
Mindspen
07/17/07
